I am Struggling

Hi!

I am Kathleen Nicole and I am a dreamer.

A little bit more about myself is that I am an independent singer-songwriter who aspires to be a recording artist and a performer -- to be able to share music and connect with the audience, more so on a deeper level if possible.

Part of fulfilling the dream is to attend numerous auditions in hopes of making it in the cut and being part of something more concrete to hone my talents and skills and at the very least, be known to more people. I have been to plenty auditions. I sometimes make it to the next round but most times, it is just a deadpan "Thank you for coming. You did a good job." or worse -- not being able to hear from them at all. Hearing a straight, flat "no" is more acceptable for me, to be honest.

Over the past few years, rejection -- direct and indirect -- is the only thing I have ever received in my musical journey. It has been a really huge struggle for me and lately I have been thinking that maybe music is not for me -- maybe I am not talented enough, and maybe I am simply not good enough. Maybe it is best for me to just give up the one thing that I am passionate about -- the one thing that I've known my entire life.

...but I am strong. I know I am stronger than all of the not-so-good things that life may throw my way and with these happening in my journey, I know I only become stronger-er -- if that is even a word -- and way more determined to fulfill my greatest dreams.

All of us struggle once in a while -- some even more so than others -- one way or another, but I just want to let you know that it is alright to struggle as it is part of life. It is perfectly fine to get lost and feel miserable with the negativity that comes our way. You should give yourself time to struggle -- to feel sad, to cry, to scream in pain -- and when the moment comes when you've recovered and felt okay, -- which I am very much sure that you will -- you use it to fight back harder in life and you will come out victorious in the end.

Never give up on your dreams; it's what keeps us alive -- I know I do.

The journey to fulfilling our dreams is a very long and tough road.

I know I am not there yet, but I am definitely on my way and so are you.

There is no giving up, only moving forward.